June 17, 1999
My name is Mina Nam. I’m 19, still very young,
but I am dying. Not right now but my life is slowly
fading away as I’m writing my story. At this
moment I’m sitting at ‘our’ spot.
Mine and Eun Ji Won, the love of my life.
The sun is slowly beginning to set over the lake.
I took a glance at my reflection in the water. My
outside looks have changed drastically within the
past few months, but the water reflected the true
me. Inside I’m still the same person.
I have done and given so much for love but never
once, have I received it back from Ji Won. There
are times that I wanted to tell him everything that
I’ve done for him and make him love me back.
But I can’t.
Love is not selfish.
So I did what felt right. I keep giving Ji Won my
love and I never asked for his love in return. Even
though I’ll leave this world pretty soon,
my love for him will still remain. My story begins
when I first met Ji Won six years ago on this one
fateful day. It all started out…
Part 2
October 31, 1993
You better come back here you good for nothing brat!”
I covered my ears with my palms. That was my stepmother
calling me. Her voice sounds murderous and I didn’t
want to face her today. She had slapped and hit
me too much already. I’m afraid I can’t
take it anymore so I hid in my closet.
I peeked through the crack in my closet and saw
my stepmom with a really pissed off look on her
face. She was holding that stick that I’m
always afraid of. I winced thinking about how much
it would hurt if she hits me with it again.
I’m just thirteen and whoever said 13 was
an unlucky number, they were right. My mom had died
when I was just turning ten. Before she died she
told me that I was the most beautiful girl in the
world and how proud she was to be my mother. She
said even though she’ll be gone, her love
remains with me always.
Tears rolled down my cheeks. ‘If you love
me mommy, how can you be so selfish to leave me?’
So now when I had turn 13 my dad had married Mok
Young A, who is my stepmom today. She was a cold-hearted
woman who tortured me all day. Any self-esteem I
had for myself was shattered and I was living a
nightmare.
My closet door suddenly opened.
“There you are you wicked girl!”
My stepmom started cussing at me as she pulled me
out and threw me onto the floor. I began to tremble
because I knew what was going to happen next.
*Whack whack whack.*
I cried out in pain but I knew that no one is going
to hear my cries. I desperately began to gasp for
air. My heart was aching again. I couldn’t
breathe.
“Not again! Don’t you see how much you’re
costing your father and me with your heart problems?
If it wasn’t for all these medical bills we
wouldn’t be so poor now!”
I had this heart condition where air would suddenly
shut off and I couldn’t breathe. The doctors
are trying to save me by giving me a respirator
and pills, but they’re not sure how much longer
I’ll be able to live. My dad (who was a pathetic
excuse for a man) came in.
He looked down at me with sorrowful eyes. He held
my stepmom’s arm lightly and said, “I
think she had enough. You don’t want her to
have another attack. Calm down and let’s have
dinner.”
“That’s why I’m hitting her!”
she yelled. “She got detention and stayed
after school for an hour. She was supposed to be
home to go buy food for dinner and make it. Your
daughter is so evil. She wants me to starve or something!”
“I didn’t get detention. The teacher
wanted to talk to me about—“
But I was cut off by the whack of my stepmom’s
stick. I cried silently in pain and turned away.
I didn’t want to look at her.
My dad said, “Well, dinner’s just going
to be a little late today. Mina, say sorry to your
mom.”
Despite the pain, I managed to say, “Sorry
mom. Please forgive me.”
My dad handed me some money. “Here. Go buy
food to make mee-yuk-gook tonight.” My stepmom’s
temper simmered down a little as my dad lead her
out of my room.
I picked up the money and headed for the store.
Mr. Choi, the owner of Choi Food Market, shook his
head as I walked in. He knew what kind of hell I
was going through. I finished my shopping and checked
out.
“That’ll be $3.49.”
“What?” I asked. “Umm…Mr.
Choi. That’s impossible. With all this stuff
it should be around $15.”
“I know Mina.” Mr. Choi gave me a sad
smile. “The exact price is $14.32. Why don’t
you keep the change for yourself?”
I opened my mouth in shock. “Mr. Choi…I..I
can’t do that,” I said as I handed him
20.
He only took five. “No. Keep it. I know that
stepmom of yours don’t give you any money.”
I looked up at Mr. Choi with tears in my eyes. Here
he was, just a friend reaching out to me. I said
thanks and headed for home.
Part 3
I decided to take a shortcut home but as I passed
the alley, a hand pulled me in. I was knocked to
the ground and a shadow hovered over me. I began
to scream but the same hand covered my mouth.
“Shut up or I’ll kill you!”
I shut my mouth instantly. I didn’t want to
die yet. In the moon’s reflection I got a
good look of my attacker. It was a boy who looked
a little bit older than me. His face and clothes
were dirty but he had really good features so I
could tell he was extremely good-looking. But this
was not a time to think about such things.
He held a table knife at my throat and said, “Give
me all your money or I’ll kill you.”
I panicked but I knew what to do. I used the move
I wanted to use on my stepmom every time she pinned
me down and hit me. I kicked him hard, right into
his family jewels. He gasped and fell to the floor,
dropping the knife. I picked up my groceries and
ran.
I guess you can call me the dumbest person alive.
I was afraid I had kicked the boy too hard and permanently
damaged him. Besides, since my life is hell already,
I didn’t want him to go through it too. So
I turned back.
When I came back to the alley, the boy was still
lying on the floor. He was moaning softly. I lifted
him up gently. “Are you okay?” I asked.
He shook his head no. “I’m sorry,”
I said to him. I reached into my pocket and pulled
the money Mr. Choi gave me. “If you need money,
then here. All I have is ten dollars.”
I placed the money in his hand and walked away.
He looked at me with this weird expression that
I couldn’t read. I picked up my groceries
and this time I left without turning back. I could
tell the boy was watching me as I was walking away…
